After 5 months I thought Iād write some little update which is actually not update at all as I didnāt get anywhere further than I was 5 months ago. However taking a break of learning and just do some little things on a daily basis didnāt get me much further. Actually I feel it caused me go a step or two back.
Some things which happened recently made me think about this all and made me aware I should be way ahead where I am now but Iām not. I gave a small interview to someone (you might already know to who) and when reading edited version of it I realized how much editing that poor person had to make for the interview to look at least a bit āadvancedā. I have realized how simple my language still is and rather real āhwntwā what has nothing to do with South-North versions but it reflects on how half-way the language is used by me. Iām forgetting all kinds of "yn"s, āarguingā with myself where to put āiā, āynā or something else, mutating where I sholdnāt and not mutating where I should for sure ā¦ and more ātinyā bits Iād have to know already. So, yah, donāt expect youāll hear good Welsh speaker when talking to me. This is also the reason I donāt volunteer with anything related to those who actually only started to learn. Speaking with me would rather mean that one would be confused and would learn nothing or would learn wrongly.
The other thing which made me aware I stagnated was todayās Level 1 Challenge 25 repetition. Iām still not good at using shortenings and itās hard even to remember them for me what to use them in such quick time which are the gaps inbetween English and Welsh in the lesson. I could use pause button, but it might not provide any challenge to me or I wouldnāt be forced to think too hard to remember things.
I also know that I use tenses all the way wrong. If earlier I wasnāt abloe to use āoān iānā and similar things now Iām using this all the time even when very simple past tense would be required. But mostly itās still ānes iā, ānes i ddimā ānest tiā and such stuff weāve learnt at first, what comes to my mind and what I use even when there would be more useful to use shortenings.
No, Iām not moaning and if Iāve written the last time how Iāve changed my fixed mindset into growth one, this stil guilts itās just to let all know that one whoād talk to me shouldnāt expect to hear really āadvancedā and fine tuned Welsh from my end. Iām stil where I was ā¦ at the very beginning although I understand mostly everything whatās been told to me but my answers are way too simple to be counted into something advanced or fine tuned.
Might be Iāve disapointed those who put so much effort into my learning, even comming to visit me and even made much more things for me, but thatās how it is ā¦ Iām trying my best to be able to really learn every day a bit, but the time is even more hard on me as it was before. Now I am comuting already for almost 4 and a hlaf hours a day and the things (despite iām going almost the same distance as before just in another direction of the city) look to go even worse when winter comes. This week Iām at home and I put more effort into doing or re-doing more lessons but when this time passes Iāll have to switch back to ānormalā again.
So, thatās basically why I donāt involve in any Skyping more than I already do (sgwrs with @brigitte and @ramblingjohnās Skype practice when it occurs). I might do more damage to beginners than do them a favour.
So, this is it. Now back to learning. 
Iām looking forward to our next sgwrs Ddydd Sadwrn.