Hey @Claudia_Beryan! I've just "discovered" you and you go away? What about kind of stopping learning and still hanging around? The more you say you can't acheave what you think is "normal" to be acheaved with your amount of work, the more I feel the temptation to be able to Skype with you at one (not so distant if not really short) point.
I bet you can produce more than you think and I believe if you'd hear me really speaking (not singing) you'd be just aware I do many more mistakes that you'd ever do. It might be heard that I speak Welsh really good, but my welsh is more of inovations of all kinds and grammar is really not my brightest spot of speaking. I speak, this is true but if one would pay attention to the usage of my Welsh - I mean structure of sentences with that - that one woudl surely say "ohoh ... ayayay ..." The main point is that all who spoke with me and visited me like @margaretnock and @brigitte could somehow understand me. I know for sure sometimes one who listens to me has to think really hard (when I try to tell some more complex things) to be able to cope with what I tried to tell.
You still expect too much from yourself I think and it's just lack of opportunities to use your Welsh which prevents you to learn more and being able to remember/understand more.
The deceision is yours of course but you should know we're all here for you when you decide to continue (ohhh, I wish I could talk you into just not stopping at all ).
If you really go ... pob lwc (good luck) and safely return "home" (read "here" to this forum) when you decide to do so.