After 5 months I thought I’d write some little update which is actually not update at all as I didn’t get anywhere further than I was 5 months ago. However taking a break of learning and just do some little things on a daily basis didn’t get me much further. Actually I feel it caused me go a step or two back.
Some things which happened recently made me think about this all and made me aware I should be way ahead where I am now but I’m not. I gave a small interview to someone (you might already know to who) and when reading edited version of it I realized how much editing that poor person had to make for the interview to look at least a bit “advanced”. I have realized how simple my language still is and rather real “hwntw” what has nothing to do with South-North versions but it reflects on how half-way the language is used by me. I’m forgetting all kinds of "yn"s, “arguing” with myself where to put “i”, “yn” or something else, mutating where I sholdn’t and not mutating where I should for sure … and more “tiny” bits I’d have to know already. So, yah, don’t expect you’ll hear good Welsh speaker when talking to me. This is also the reason I don’t volunteer with anything related to those who actually only started to learn. Speaking with me would rather mean that one would be confused and would learn nothing or would learn wrongly.
The other thing which made me aware I stagnated was today’s Level 1 Challenge 25 repetition. I’m still not good at using shortenings and it’s hard even to remember them for me what to use them in such quick time which are the gaps inbetween English and Welsh in the lesson. I could use pause button, but it might not provide any challenge to me or I wouldn’t be forced to think too hard to remember things.
I also know that I use tenses all the way wrong. If earlier I wasn’t abloe to use “o’n i’n” and similar things now I’m using this all the time even when very simple past tense would be required. But mostly it’s still “nes i”, “nes i ddim” “nest ti” and such stuff we’ve learnt at first, what comes to my mind and what I use even when there would be more useful to use shortenings.
No, I’m not moaning and if I’ve written the last time how I’ve changed my fixed mindset into growth one, this stil guilts it’s just to let all know that one who’d talk to me shouldn’t expect to hear really “advanced” and fine tuned Welsh from my end. I’m stil where I was … at the very beginning although I understand mostly everything what’s been told to me but my answers are way too simple to be counted into something advanced or fine tuned.
Might be I’ve disapointed those who put so much effort into my learning, even comming to visit me and even made much more things for me, but that’s how it is … I’m trying my best to be able to really learn every day a bit, but the time is even more hard on me as it was before. Now I am comuting already for almost 4 and a hlaf hours a day and the things (despite i’m going almost the same distance as before just in another direction of the city) look to go even worse when winter comes. This week I’m at home and I put more effort into doing or re-doing more lessons but when this time passes I’ll have to switch back to “normal” again.
So, that’s basically why I don’t involve in any Skyping more than I already do (sgwrs with @brigitte and @ramblingjohn’s Skype practice when it occurs). I might do more damage to beginners than do them a favour.
So, this is it. Now back to learning. 
I’m looking forward to our next sgwrs Ddydd Sadwrn.