Well, I did practically nothing (regarding lessons and learning) after the bootcamp, if I’m honest, except of talking once a week for aproximately an hour and a half via Skype and writing some occassional posts on Twitter and Facebook. Might be life itself affected this as tere’s not much energy left when I come home from work but today I finally repeated lesson 17 of Course 2 (what should be prety much in my brains) only to find out it’s all went blank and as If I never would even listen what to learn this lesson at all.
No, I’m not moaning despite so many not quite pleasant things happened in this periode that I’m quite psychically worn out, but obviously taking a break, what concerns learning Welsh (or any other language for that matter) isn’t a healthy thing for me. Sometimes I feel like I’ll just have to repeat all courses over and over again. This is the 3rd or 4th time already (to be honest I don’t count anymore) I’m running through the whole material and every time I come back it seams everything totally new to me, just like if it would never be heard and learnt before. Yes, Course 1 is easy, Level 1 a bit less, Course 2 is mostly total blank. Now, I came to level 2 Challenge 17 before other Southern Challenges were available and I just don’t have the needed courage to go further … I’m stuck in learning and forgeting and learning again (remembering quite less) and forgeting again and learning and … (over and over again)…
Sometimes I really wonder how could I survive a bootcamp and all next days after it majority in Welsh even without any terror and being frightened or frustrated (yes I was frustrated once but it was not due to Cymraeg, believe me). I understood practically everything and was able to say (despite with very simple sentences) many things. I can hold an hour and a half of the conversation with @brigitte every week (and the range of the areas of interest we are “discussing” is really wide, believe me), I can prety much understand majority of Growth Club content, I dare to dream about translating the greatest Slovene love poem in Cymraeg one day soon, however I can’t learn and remember majority of expressions from Course 2! This is really kind of amazing.
And, no, “Challenge 19” didn’t happen. I’ve started but never finished properly but, for that matter, when I try to write something on facebook or twitter, i’m trying to use more complex forms of past tense. I actually struggle with shortenings as I don’t know from where they derive and this for I for many don’t know what they actually mean. All of a sudden it seams to me like there would be hundreeds fo them. I’ve written them all down from the course guides and it seams so big amount of them to me.
Well, sorry, I just had to put this here … and … as always in the recent periode - those are only observations of happenings not real moaning though. I have nothing to moan about as guilt is purely mine. I was lazy but still, even at the time I did course daily, there were the same blanks in my memory so I’m not quite sure lazyness has all to do with this.
Ymarfer? You will say I’m talking nonsense, but I’ve started even thing in Cymraeg when my thoughts are related to Cymru, Cymraeg and all related … and I do think about all this quite a lot …